Words we could never find .

I hate this year , everything . I felt that every good thing that happened , fades away too fast . And whatever bad things that happened , just stays . Best friends , who i used to think they were true . But things change , change too fast that whenever i read whatever they gave me , i could literally end up in tears. I missed my lovelies , all 4 of them , Eve , nana , amanda and xj . In secondary school we were so close that no matter what fights we have , we will settle it . But now , it's so hard to talk to one another . Or the matter a fact , we never talk any more. Seriously tell me what does forever means , fornever would be a better word . We been through shit and all it takes for a heart to fall and everything is gone . What's with the promises , you said you will never let me fall , but when ever i fall , i am always there alone to pick myself back up . You made my 2010 the most memorable year.

Seriously , everything changes . No one remain the same ..

a few more days

19 more days to Christmas , 25 more days till the year end .

Not in much of a Christmas mood , because i have nothing to look forward too .
This year has been horrible for me . So much more heart breaks than usual . It seriously sucks . I want 2011 to be a better year . I want you to take me for real . I lost too much friends this year . I want a good Christmas , i wish this year end would be a great ending to cover up all the shit this year. 2010 , it's as good as dead.

Even though it's still early to make 2011 wishes , but i wish none of this shit i faced in 2010 , will not be repeated in 2011 .

Heartbreak

Met with my dearest rachel , ben , Babyboy , Murphy and john . ( :
School was usual , had lots of down .
It's the start of dec and it sucks so much already ):

I miss my bby already ):