Hello , i am back and i am happier (:

Did loads of stupid things . Had over night pool with George and co . Spent awesome time with Rach and ben . Adding on , met Joel Balls :D Went out with Wenda , met my Sexyzx And Last night webcam with Samuel (: I am happier , i no longer cry to sleep (: Anyway Merry Christmas .

I made a wish (:

I guess

Last night , i made the toughest choice . Just a click changes everything . My heart still hurts , I have not seen you in a week , and spoken to you in 6 days . You said you need time because youre stress . Aint we suppose to work things out and not leaving anyone behind . Somehow i still love you , but i know even if we're back tgt , nothing will work out . Both are us are too stubborn to make changes . Even if changes are made , we'll be a step forward and three steps backwards . Till now , i still feel that i am still not good enough for you .

Hello stranger .

Dear you ;

I wonder how are you . we did not text for 3 days already . I missed you , but do you . Why did you have a sudden change of heart ? Was it my fault ? I know you wont read my blog . And also i guess , if you ever come across my blog , at least you know that i love you . I dont know what wrong have i done that ever upset you until you decided to ignore me . It breaks my heart really .. I'm sorry if i am not the best girlfriend , and also i may not be the prettiest girlfriend you can bring out . I may not be the skinniest girlfriend you had . But all i have , is a heart , who stays by you at your ugliest moment . I dont understand why we fight through every one's perception just to be together and now , we ended up in the most miserable way.. I am sorry that i am selfish , i'm sorry that i have trust problems , i'm sorry for every mistake made in this relationship. I tried very hard to be the most caring girlfriend i could be , i tried very hard to make you happy . All i could say is that i really do not know why we will end up like this now . Things change , we meet new people . Tomorrow will be our 49th month )': You did not tell me anything , but please , dont leave me hanging . Soon it'll be Christmas then End of year . My only wish would be that we could sort things out , be it good or bad . I really miss you . I enjoyed every happy time we had together ... i am not sure if you already left or still considering to stay .. I only want the best for both of us. I love you still i guess ..

From me .