die

Ate a few packets of chocolates , Soak a few packets of tissue , tried to pass time .
Somehow i still worry . You never reply text , i asked joel to call you and text you .
I seriously hope youre fine . I'm all to blame again .
I'm sorry . I hope you dont create trouble or be a little boy okay .

I'm just to upset . Only a few hours had passed and my heart ache like fuck .
Now i know , only heartache can kill a person .


Please be fine , please be fine , please be fine , please be fine.

It hurts so much , It hurts so much , It hurts so much , It hurts so much , It hurts so much , It hurts so much , It hurts so much , It hurts so much , It hurts so much , It hurts so much , It hurts so much , It hurts so much , It hurts so much , It hurts so much , It hurts so much , It hurts so much , It hurts so much , It hurts so much , It hurts so much , It hurts so much , It hurts so much , It hurts so much , It hurts so much , It hurts so much , It hurts so much , It hurts so much , It hurts so much , It hurts so much , It hurts so much , It hurts so much , It hurts so much , It hurts so fucking much , It hurts so much , It hurts so much , It hurts so much , It hurts so much , It hurts so much , It hurts so much , It hurts so much , It hurts so much , It hurts so much , It hurts so much , It hurts so much , It hurts so much , It hurts so much , It hurts so much , It hurts so badly that i just cant control.

Only time can mend the difference .
I'm very sorry .

Skipped family dinner , stayed at home instead, my tears cant hold on any longer .

Today

I shall not rant about my school , it'll be a waste of my time if i typed out 100times boring ..

That feeling still linger within me ..
Why cant i be first , like how i used to be .
You will say that i am , and always will be ..
But i dont feel that way .
It's okay , what ever i say might be annoying . I'm sorry once again ..

I.Feel.Like.Crying.
Suck it in Janice , dont be like the past .
You promised to never be sucha wimp , but i am .
I am defeated by the love you overwhelmed me with .
And till now i'm still defeated by everything you overwhelmed me with .
You dough bag...